Tuesday, December 16, 2003
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wtf, why do i try, even if she wanted something, it wuold never work, theres no point in relationships unless the families would con-enside, so if they wont wtf, and especially why even try if both people arent interested, i want to give up, but i cant, gaw, lol whenever shes not around im mad at her then when im with her its like impossible to be upset, wtf IM LACKING, im going to play this song loud and not write my essay tonight, i want to hold her hand, i want to open up the door for her, i want to talk to her on the phone, i want to watch foregin movies with her trying to understand that subtitles, i want to be sappy with her, i want to make fun of sappy romantic bs that never happens with her, i want to try to dance complicated things with her, i want to never see her again, i want nothing more then to see her again, i want to pay for dinner, i want to not let her pay, i want to go out with her friends, i want to go out with my friends, i want to, i want to hang out with her, i want to call her when something is wrong, i want her to come to random family gatherings, i want my parents to interrogate me about her, i want to be in her presense, i want i want i want, but nothing i can have, she wants none of this, do i even want any of this? gaw wtf, i suck, heres the lyrics of now, Don't let me be misunderstood by santa esmeralda its in kill bill if it sounds fimilar

Baby, do you understand me now?
Sometimes I feel a little mad
But don't you know that no one alive can always be an angel
When things go wrong I feel real bad.

I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood

Baby, sometimes I'm so carefree
With a joy that's hard to hide
And sometimes it seems that, all I have to do is worry
And then you're bound to see my other side

I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood

If I seem edgy, I want you to know,
That I never mean to take it out on you
Life has its problems, and I get my share,
And that's one thing I never mean to do

'Cause I love you,
Oh,

Oh, oh, oh, baby - don't you know I'm human
I have thoughts like any other one
Sometimes I find myself, Lord, regretting
Some foolish thing, some little simple thing I've done

I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Yes, I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Yes, I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood
Nate at 9:29 PM