Friday, February 06, 2004
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Hahah, I don't give a fuck if this is a "ghost site." I like posting here, it lets me loosen up and not have to resort to cocaine. Ya know who is cool? I mean there are hella people that are cool, and plenty throats that i wanna rip out, but one of em cool ones is Peter Cung. Yep. He just knows his place. He lets no one step past his boundries but knows how to repect people too. He understands what he's been through, what his parents have been through and he knows where he wants to go. Iono, good kid, that Peter.

Anyways, my arm ligaments feel all ripped up cause of tennis with Jaeman. Haven't played in HELLA long and now me and Jae both suck. Great. Tennis starts in 3 days. But iono, whether or not I should join it. I have 4 AP/Honors classes and SAT work to deal with. 2.5 hours of tennis practice might just be the push that just kills me. I hella need the cardio and strength workout though, shit I feel so weak right now.

I feel myself getting less violent and less protective of myself. It could be cause I feel hella weak and I think anyone could beat me down, or its some crazy pacifist psychological manisfestation of my subconscious. I think its the latter, because I doubt the outcome of the fight would affect my decisions. I have no idea wtf is going on.

Anyways, gotta go hit that punching bag now, lates!
Stephen at 9:46 PM